This womb talk topic, although relatively common, is rarely openly discussed. A majority of mothers who have experienced a miscarriage often times grieve in silence. Physical recovery may take one to two months, however emotional healing after a miscarriage takes much longer, especially if one does not give themselves permission to personally process what they have endured. As with any trauma, we all cope differently.
Today's post includes a portion of an upcoming documentary by Nikole Cleare as she penned her experience.
I had a miscarriage.
I was pregnant!!!!! I was really pregnant!!!!! I honestly wasn't sure it was even possible. I've always hoped and dreamed for more kids but wasn't completely sure or even comfortable with the idea anymore. But it happened. I'm not sure if I was two or three months pregnant, but I do know that I went into labor, experienced the most dearest pain I had ever felt in my life, and this gift from Elohim wasn't an accident. We....more so his dad, knew what he was doing when he planted his seed inspired by his love for me and his hope in our future, inside of me intentionally. I don't have any regrets. I'm grateful to have held and been able to nurture his love in the form of a baby, even if I haven't been able to do so in our realm lately. All things happen for our (my) good and this is one of them. I've always wondered what labor felt like and now I know. I've always wondered what it would feel like to nurture your seed and now I know. GOD makes no mistakes, and I actually did give birth today. Perhaps not to a living being, but I've renewed my own ability, my own strength, my dependency on GOD, and love. ~ by Nikole Cleare